Bangkok Day 2

Here are some nice things
1. Raining nights after the heat wave
2. Old books
3. New books
4. Cold beer on hot nights
5. Laughing
6. Smiling
7. Hugs that makes you feel like you are combusting
8. Kisses that feels like 1000 butterflies has been awoken inside your stomach
9. Wet-nose kisses from Poo ( P’Mai dog)
10. Sunsets
11. A clear night sky with the Orion’s belt so vivid
12. The night frog in perfect harmony
13. Smell from freshly cut grass

Appreciate those little moments on the beach
with a beer and a good sunset.
I’m so sorry for anyone who has ever hurt you,
but please don’t close your heart to love,
You need love, and love needs you.

Those are the nice simple things to remind you to stay alive.

Short note for today: 30 hours in Bangkok and I haven’t stepped outside of the apartment. I didn’t feel like getting changed or walking or breathing. I put my mind into something else or I feel numb. When my mind is not occupied, I found it drift into a very dark place. I kept myself busy, yet, it’s not exactly working into my direction.

I began to question the reason of my existence, why do I have to live? Do I have to live? Am I important? Does my existence matter? Because on days like today, it seems like it is not.

Is it okay to say I’m tired … of life.