Quarantine Camp – Day 12

I happened to stumble upon one of the blessed post that I made awhile ago

#100happydays#day30#happiness of #maisky is suddenly realize how blessed her life is. She have everything possible in the world that everyone could dream for: loving parents, loving sister, loving extended family, a beautiful place she called home, a car to cover her on rainy day, friends are everywhere. She could go to wherever she wants in the entire world. She could take a year off from work just to try look for her dream career. A relatively not dumb head to learn things as fast thanks to her loving parents’ awesome genes. A father who’s so smart to answer any possible question she could think of about life experience. I mean, who could possibly ask for more ? No pictures could cover that much of blessings 

This was written by me on May 30th, 2014

6 years has passed since the time I wrote the message above. Not in a million year I could dream of where I am right now. That’s why I wholeheartedly believe there’s no such thing called “planning” in this world. We human is being blessed with the ability to imagine, this amazing characteristic has brought us to the Moon, but also limit ourselves into thinking that we can control the outcomes of our actions.

The storm never stops, but neither does the rainbow. There’s a storm going right outside of my door, and this brought me to this thought. It has always been kinda stormy in my life, part of it I think is because I was following the storm, sort of like those ppl in America called ” Storm Chaser”. There’s one thing that I like about myself is I’m not afraid to take risk, and stepping out of my comfort zone. Actually, I’m excited to be able to take risk. Yesterday, I was talking to anh Hieu, and I told him about my plan.

Hieu: Why are you so brave?
Mai: If I’m not the one to take a leap of faith, who’s gonna go and take it?

To my surprised, that was the first thing he asked me , of all the people in the world, he would ask me this question? I guess being a father of 2 has changed him greatly. We used to share dreams, we used to complain about how boring it is to live a corporate life. Or maybe, he was trying to talk in my view just to be with me, I don’t really know.

Looking backward, I did truly feel blessed 6 years ago. It’s great that I get to experience that kind of illusions. Having been trying to learn and search for the meaning of life in the past 4 years, I have come to the conclusion that there’s no such thing called Blessing, it’s a chain of action and reaction in which the Hindu called “Karma”.

For example: The idea of opened “Beurre” bakery is because of me having to come back to Bangkok. Coming back to Bangkok because My partner advise me to after being kicked out of the Homestay and so on ..

My mind seems to be a bit scattered these days. So I will stop it here.