My ice-cream shop has gradually fall into places. I’m working very hard everyday, yet at the end of the day, I would love to have someone or something to snuggle up to. I told Camel about my image of going round in circle, he got quite mad, then I ended up saying sorry without knowing what I’m actually sorry for.

I’m getting really tired, and exhausted, and feel so unhealthy emotionally and physically. This drag is very bad for my health. Like this moment, I want to just ended the rls. Why do I have to wait one more month? What makes me think one more month will change?

Everything I said, always come to a silent. Like my text message or my talk or my letter doesn’t exist. I can understand, he wants to say no, but also fighting with himself to say yes. I can understand it completely, but who will understand for me? I feel disrespected, I pour my heart out, and everytime is either anger, or silence.

Anyway, it’s okay. I have something to focus on, life will be beautiful again. I know 🙂