Hello again, I found a bit of strength back so today I could write at night. I stayed home today till 3 PM and went to office for some work. It’s the thing about running a business, I always have to go to work. There’s no real day off.

It’s official, for the next course of Bliss, we are shifting into a new paradigm that I’m running the kitchen closely which means I have 2 task at a same time: running the business & running my kitchen as closely as I could. It’s double the workload that I have, and I’m not sure that I have the mind and strength to do so.

This running course for Bliss is gonna be long. Same as Covid, it’s probably gonna last for 5 years. I figure the number is realistic, last time, SARS only appears in 3 countries, only 1750 people was infected and it last for 8 months. This time, worldwide it has 168M case, that’s 1750^2 1/3. If we did the same number for time, it will be 8^2 1/3 , around 160 months = 13 years. For that reason, I think the number 5 year does make sense to me, because we have to factor in the advance technology stage and other factors vaccine etc …

I already feel quite drained, I told my therapist about my plans, you know like renting a bigger apartment so that I can have one room dedicated to energy healing – singing bowl, light therapy, psycho analysis. The bigger dream would be go to somewhere nearer to nature, somewhere that has garden, rlver and a lot of dog. Living and staying in an apartment makes me feel sad, I still remembered back then when I was travelling between Hoi An and Sai Gon, I told Camel that I feel really sorry for ppl living in condo. It’s so sad, so soulless. I will never want to live inside these buildings.

Yet, here I am, shamelessly living in “those buildings” for the past 6 months thinking about those moments.

27.06.21

I passed out mid way to finish this blog post yesterday thinking that I will be able to finish it in the morning. The reality is I can never finish anything in the morning. As the working day start, the best I could do is to take 1 hour off for yoga and then things start rolling like there’s no tomorrow.

Have I told you that Camel gave me 50 million AGAIN yesterday? I’m so poor these days, I will take anything but at the same time it give me the sense of extreme guilt 🙁 . I haven’t been able to repay anything but still taking the money. My bank account has 196,000 left =)) , I don’t know why I’m so poor. You know what, this blog domain and host supposed to be expired on May 19th and I don’t have the money to pay anh Mạnh, it’s only 1,220,000 VND =)) and I asked anh Manh to postpone it for me till end of month so that I can take my salary and pay.

I was ready for the blog to be down couple days =)) . I thought I will write somewhere else and then post it again when it’s up. Talking about my extension of domain and hosting, Camel paid for my blog 2 years ago, from his salary writing for Vietnam Airlines :D. In fact, he indirectly paid for blog this year too.

I started working hands on again in the kitchen, I was so busy running the department 🙁 . It’s really double the workload. Without my sous chef, I’m running it hard and hands on while thinking about developing new products.

Camel told me that I need to consider sleeping in the studio. I think realistically, it’s the best thing that I should do if I want to maintain my presence. However, I don’t think I can be able to sleep there. Have I told you about my relationship with my bed 😀 , I can only have one bed at a time and moving somewhere else meaning I won’t be able to sleep. If I’m not able to sleep, I won’t be able to work and everything crashed …

The next best thing is to move out of this building and sleep in the other apartment. It’s good, but also bad since I’m so afraid of sleeping there alone.

I’m so sorry my eyes decided that it has to shut down. We will talk more tomorrow.