I dreamed of Camel again last night, in that dream we were lost in a mountain together, trying to find our way into the city. We ended up sleeping together in an abandoned hut. Obviously, deep into the mountain, in a hut with some fire, we were almost making love, but I stopped and asked: ” Are you sure about this? Should we do this?”. Then we stopped and went straight to sleep. The next morning, we said: “Why do we worry so much? There’s only us in this place, why such societal burden stopping us from doing what we truly wants in our heart? Is it only the imagination of the mind? … I think we sort diving into each other and then I woke up…

I told my therapist that I want to move on, I want to have a partner in my life. You know someone who will sit and watch Netflix with me, or someone I can cook a meal, so we can eat together. I’m living alone so it does not really makes any difference between cooking and ordering for myself. But there’s something that I cannot control – my dream, I cannot control my dream to be out of Camel. My unconscious decided to be Camel, and build many dreams inside. What can I do?

I think I can find the connection to write about Camel today. I need to work, and will write about this later today

Mai