My spirit – the thing that keeps me waking up every morning – is extraordinary. It seems like she never stopped learning and better herself. Just as soon as I told you that I feel whole, that the journey I’ve been on has reached a destination, my spirit tasked me with a new challenge.

Last night I had a quite interesting dream. From what I can understand, behind the coded images: I must learn how to communicate better, to create connection with people around.

This is the second time that I dreamed of my therapist.

I went to his office and made an appointment with him, expecting that it will take couple weeks before I can meet him. I told the Admin that I wanted to book a series of lessons with my therapist with the purpose: “ I want to be able to communicate as soft, as understanding and very connected like him. I searched around and nowhere offered this kind of course, so I would like him to take time and teach me privately.”

She checked the schedule, looking up at me and smile: “Anh Đức báo là có thể giúp Mai trong việc này. Hôm nay anh Đức có giờ trống lúc 5:30 PM, Mai có muốn gặp anh Đức luôn bây giờ không?”

“Dạ, ủa sao nhanh vậy chị? Luôn bây giờ hả chị? ” I responded with my eyes wide opened, thinking to myself ” Wow, today must be my lucky day”

“Đúng rồi Mai, là bây giờ luôn” She smiled and gently reminded me again.

“Though I’m not prepared to go into the lessons today, but I’m super excited to start early.” I responded.

The little girl guided me through the corridor and leading into my therapist room.

“Wow, how are we supposed to go up there?”

There I was standing in the empty room with only a part of stairs hanging in the middle of nowhere. There are only 2 steps that still connected.

The girl climbed up the room and asked me to follow. I tried to follow but I know it in my heart that I cannot jump through that stairs, it’s too scary. I tried, but I really cannot follow through. I saw my therapist standing up there smiling, but there’s noway I can reach that place.

I gave up, and left the room back to the admin room discussing with chi Phung.

“Ủa sao mình không làm cầu thang mới, hay là xây lại một cầu thang cho chắc chắn vậy chị?” I asked while taking a cup of hot tea she just poured for me. She’s taking her time, reluctantly to give me an answer.

Then I have an Aha moment: “Oh I understand, is it because this is the rented place, so you don’t want to invest in a staircase because it seems. Em hiểu rồi, vậy thì make sense, there’s no point investing in a place that is not your own.”

I continue to think for a solution, and I have a second Aha moment: ” Chị ơi, hay là chị mua cái thang chữ A, mình chỉ cần mở ra rồi leo lên thôi. Không nguy hiểm, cũng không tốn kém. Vậy là lần sau em có thể quay lại và lên gặp anh Đức được rồi”

That’s the end of my dream. Though I didn’t get what I was looking for, I feel satisfied both in the dream and after I woke up.

The dream is very vivid, so clear in my mind, that I kept the image so clear in my head I can draw it out.

The topic / challenge that my spirit wants to conquer is clear : To communicate & connect with other people, but I couldn’t understand the images inside.

What do you think? What is it that my inner wisdom is telling me?