Hello from my favorite blue chair :).

I’m so sorry for not updating in awhile. I feel like I’m making excuses by kept on saying that I’m so busy and I don’t really have time to actually sit down and enjoy nice music, in my favorite chair composing my favorite blog.

Truth is I was really busy, truly. I have been producing for Bliss Ha Noi, for about 1 weeks straight. So it’s a lot of work, on Tuesday and Thursday I have Psychology Class. On Mon- Wed- Friday, I’m fixing my body, trying to suck out all the deoxygenated blood out of the deep vessel. Another truth is, I stayed back last night to have a drink with my therapist. So I was really busy, but when I want to find time, I can have it. That’s why I never believe in the excuse of “being busy”. Even I find myself using that excuse sometimes and I find that unacceptable.

You see, even within myself, with a person who’s constantly “nuông chiều” bản thân, I find myself guilty as charged sometimes. That’s why I find life is a difficult place sometimes.

I have been contemplating about my life in recent months to conclude that I have been living quite a happy life recently. Though I’m struggling a bit in the money department, beside that I’m filled with joy everyday. I’m busy doing the thing I love, too much that I wish there are 48 hours in a day for me to do the thing I love.

Let see, I started my day with Yoga. Then I go to Bliss, creating the kind of food that I love. Typically, I finish my work day at 8 PM, then I’m off to class. I’d be home around 10PM, and I’m struggling between reading a book, playing the piano, writing a blog, or just simply sitting and doing nothing. I’d like to have all the time to do all of this activity. I’m looking forward to go home everyday. It’s the best feeling that I’ve ever had. Having a place, to look forward to go back to. A place that I feel safe, content, and secured.

I think, for all the thing I’ve been through, it’s a blessing. Because I really like the version of myself at this moment. I like how I embrace my home and myself. I like how I really know myself, I like how much knowledge I have in the feel of human and social science. I like how much I know about love, I know how to love at least in the right direction. I like how evolved I have been in such a short timeframe.

I like how curios I am about everything in this world. I like my view about the world is still as fresh as a 2 year old child.

Oh, I have successfully sent 987 kg of stocks to Ha Noi this afternoon. This is a history day when Bliss created another branch, going out to the second city. The ice cream is on it’s way and I’m flying there to Ha Noi on Monday to receive it.

You know, I don’t have good feeling about Ha Noi city. I generally don’t like the city, at all. It’s so aggressive, so harsh, so competitive, so bossy. The city has all the characters that I dislike. Every time I have to go there for work, I try to minimize the time, I wouldn’t want to hang around. I’m scared, I feel unsafe. It’s strange, I don’t know why I have such strong feelings for the city. I’ve never been cheated on, never been yelled at, mostly because I have my friends around to protect me.

Oh my friends, my very nice and funny friends, when in need, all turn into someone I couldn’t recognize. Someone so fierce, so harsh, using the colorful language that I couldn’t imagine. I could never imagine myself living in that land, more like I can never survive there. I could not work or operate the way I want to do.

It seems like my mind is wandering through many topics of today. It’s already exactly midnight, I think that’s it for today.

Thank you for listening to me. 🙂